What Defines You*
Editing video today
I caught a glimpse of myself
at 10 or 11
a round thing
more likely to roll than walk
—like Thud Butt in Hook.
I grew up, though
and I listen to interviewers ask
“So when’s the first time you had sex?”
The responder will say 12 or 13 if black
And 24 if white and formerly fat
In the video I’m holding onto my brother
The same one I’d hit for sport
when the need arose.
I’m hugging his skinny body and he’s taking it
As if he knows
It’s all I’ll ever get.
*Posted this one on my old Tumblr previously.